So the other night, Kait and I slept in the living room together. I think I passed out around 4. We're still working on project iPod so that kept us up a while. The set up is great. I'm sitting on one side of the living room with my laptop and stacks of CD's and after I'm done with one, I pass it down the line. I got a lot of new stuff from Shari which is always fun. But anyways - the slumber party.
I woke up early yesterday morning to see that Kait wasn't there. You must realize that due to recent events, I now have this fear of people not being there when I wake up because of my snoring. I didn't realize this untill recently but it's becoming more and more of a problem. However, Kait was just in the bathroom so- false alarm. lol :)
Went looking for jobs yesterday too. That was also a bust. I'm gonna hit up the Holyoke Mall... I was gonna go today but I dunno if I have the energy - and gas money - to get there today. I also need to get an oil change, do laundry, and finish this cd project so I can make some new play lists for the trip to Canada. Kait's been making these summer cd's and a couple other themes like songs about drinks and stuff. It's so cute. So I thought I should make a playlist with songs about breakups. I think it's just what I need right now. :)
I think I've finally come to terms with the fact that I can't handle a relationship right now. I need to get over the feeling of inadequacy before I can handle another real relationship. That's fine though - I'm enjoying spending time with my friends and meeting new people. Seeing what's out there. Enjoying what's close. ;)
Have I mentioned how super emotional I am right now? It's awful. I don't think I've ever been this bad. I mean, I usually go through a week of feeling like the people I'm really close to don't love me. I just wanna shut myself in my room and never come out because I realize how ridiculous it is. I got so pissy yesterday looking for jobs. Then some guy pulled out in the street in front of me - didn't even see me (they were doing some sort of u turn like thing but it was clear they never saw me) and I flipped and layed on the horn. I was actually impressed with myself with my reflexes on that one. Usually I'm like "ah! ...uh! ...ahh!! *HONK*" I guess it pays to be super bitchy once and awhile. And by pays, I mean saves lives. lol
Speaking of pay.... the job thing again... stop being my mom! My mom isn't close to being as bad as my friends are with nagging me about getting a job. As Jackie would say "I'll eat your soul." Besides, I'm working on it...
Alright... I'll go be productive at least. :) Mmmm - FOOD!
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