So school's out. I'm jobless still. It's alright. So are most the other members of the house right now. Jackie's back. It's been fun. I've stopped going out EVERY night which is better for me. I mean, I'll be honest - I can't even form real thoughts right now.
I'm super emotional right now. Just that time (whatever - I'm open about it). I feel like everything's worse than last time though. I came home cause I wanted to hang out with the girls and they're all out visiting Katie. Which is fine. They didn't do anything wrong - I'm just super emotional about it and upset that I'm not there or that they're all not here. I mean, it's a little deeper than that but there's no need for the entire world to know about that part of my life.
I'll touch on it though. I've been exploring my options. It's no secret that my friendship with Scott has done nothing but get worse and worse. We went out for Doug's birthday last Friday and my god - I wanted to punch Scott in the face so bad. He feels the need to comment on everything - I mean, EVERYTHING. Things that don't concern him. It's like he makes these comebacks but I never said anything in the first place and he just says them to say them and make me feel bad. We've talked since and have made some amends. I understand why he is the way he is and I mean - I brought another guy with me (Chris) and it upset him. HOWEVER, I will not give him that as an excuse. *sigh* I wish that some day we could work it all out and be friends. It's hard because we're both stubborn, jealous people.
On another note, I'm a little distracted. I won't name names because I don't think it's public information... but a friend of mine's mom is really sick and they've been through a lot lately already. I'm just worried about them. It sucks. All I wanna do is be there for them but I just get pushed away farther and farther. It hurts. I feel useless. I hate that feeling.
Canada this weekend. I mean, I can't tell you how much I need this vacation. We're going up to Jackie's family's cabin. Jackie, Stef, Kait, Bonnie, Eleni, & I. It's gonna be amazing. I need to get out of here. I went home for a few days but plans kept falling through and I couldn;'t take it anymore. That, and seeing Shawn's bike everytime I drove down Storey Ave. I got to see Matt True though! That was fun. It'd been awhile. We got food and then met up with Kyle Parks. I also got kidnapped by Paige which was totally amazing. Saw Ethan too. Oh! And I went out to lunch with Val. So I got to see a good amount of people whom I don't usually see. I wish I got to see Katie though. I miss her.
Alright. I'm going back to my project iPod. I've been in the living room all day updating my files and loading my cd's. I had to reformat my computer the other day (norton ate windows explorer...fucker) and I didn't really care cause I have everything on my external - or so I thought. I didn't realize that my itunes folder was still directed to my C drive so when I ripped CD's to itunes it was putting them on the C drive instead of my external hd and so thus, I lost those and it's a pain to deal with on my ipod. So I'm going crazy. I even sucked Shari and Jackie into it. Stole tons of Shari's CD's. Also - we recently came across itunes sharing capabilities which are technically useless - but fun. hehe :) *night*
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hey meg, I wish I could see people as well. However I continue to meet 450 new students every few days instead. When I invited Shari over, I told her to bring you! She brought Kait and Jackie instead and explained that you were out with Chris. In closing, I miss you too and perhaps on Friday we can go to Charlies?
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