"when the light falls on your face, don't let it change you, when the stars get in your eyes don't let it blind you"

Never in my life have I been so disgusted that I literally felt nautious, let alone actually throw up. Lately, that seems to be the trend though. I'm disgusted by many things right now, but most importantly, I'm disgusted with humanity itself. It's at the point where I'm thinking "it'd be so much better somewhere else..." and then realize, that no, it's not. The world is a horrilble place filled with horrible people and there's no where to go to avoid it. I guess I could be a hermitt. That might work.

My least favorite day of the entire year is coming upon us fast. Then we go to Allentown. I'm looking forward to bringing the flutes back to our home of bus 4 but sad still that the nets aren't with us. Damn us and our huge-ass sections that take up entire busses. Wonder if our traitors will return... *achem* ;)

Ugh, I'm talking Band. I might as well go all out. We're doing Blue Rondo with the drumline and it'll look super f-ing cool if we can pull it off. Basically we get the entire band to march in compound meter and then this crazy stuff. I mean, if I see us pull this off, I will definately consider us to be God. lol /end Bando-talk

Next week we have our Wind Ensemble Concert and the Orchestra Concert. I'm nervous for us. I hate that feeling.

Looking at Grad Schools lately. Here's the list so far. It's kinda diverse because I'm applying different places for different things... so we'll see. These aren't in any real order either)

North Carolina School for the Arts (Masters in Music Performance)
New York University (Masters in Music Business)
Hart School of Music (Masters in Performing Arts Management)
University of Miami - Frost School of Music (Masters in Music Performance)
Boston University (Masters in Music Business)
Syracuse Univeristy (Music Business) ?
Florida State University ?

Still looking. So if anyone knows any programs for music business or performing arts management that are really good, let me know. I'm aiming to stay on the East Coast and I'd like to go somewhere that does have below 0 winters, but I'll deal. Basically, Crane, Ithaca, and SU are not really options, but i might be willing to think about it. lol

I'm gonna go breathe a little. lol Do you ever take a breath and have it feel like you've never done that before and it just changed how you live your life? It's happened a lot lately and it makes me feel amazing :)